theintern
hello wordpress,
i’m back! well i was recently asked by some friends to actually blog about my internship. i would actually, i am really starting to realize that the church is really no different to any other organization. there will always be irritating people present, there is no perfect organization. even a pastor somewhere once said, if you have no problems in your church, your church is bad is bad for you LEAVE immediately! either that, or you are just simply delusional. so i’m starting to see this. i’m glad i’m in a proper church, there are problems. i’m glad i have no negative feelings, but i guess in the midst of the matter/ situation it’s different. but then again i’m not one to bear much grudges. the biggest difference in the church is that everyone has one common culture, we are all royalty in the kingdom ushering God’s love to the people of this sunny island. we do what we do because of love. i really understand how this love is translated, honouring others, confronting people, God’s love allows us to do these things to anyone. i really mean anyone, not just friends, not just nice people, even people who offend your mind.
as part of my internship, i have read hebrews, romans, acts, mark, matthew, john. hahaha! so nice right? i like hebrews and romans alot. i have talked to many people with uncle henry as well, these people are really having life tough, our natural society in singapore is sometimes really unkind to people like them yet we are called to love and show love to the unloved and honour the un-honourable and the weak. i sure anyone who has been on humanitarian trips will see the pain of the people living in conditions that are bad, no electricity, no water in small homes with no furniture. well such people do exist in Singapore and we really do not need to go to the ends of the earth to find them, whether or not it’s their fault that they have landed in this predicament is really of no concern we just show love, talk to them, pray for them even feed them. to me my paycheck from church is really mediocre, of no value. i feel that my greatest wage is the knowledge that even people who are not kingdom people see the ray of hope in God, although it may seem like lip service, my heart really wants to believe that they are really seeing the hope in God, in my Jesus, who really can save the whole world! i want to believe in them when they see the hope in God that they can break free from the clutches of the evil one and really soar with God. KV once said something like this, when we see people we dont tell them they are dirt(aka shit) but we actually call out the GOLD in them making them realize that being created in the image of God we were built to ROCK! the BAD guy is really scared that we actually ROCK! I ROCK, I WANT YOU TO ROCK TOO! that’s why i believe in everyone. think about it imagine we could see what God sees in each of us and loves us for that, imagine if i could see like that i’d be so heart broken for the people of this world. how am i to love them so much? do i have that much love to give? God love me more so i can have the capacity to love others.
on a side note, i think i’m not over you, when i saw someone help you up, my heart skipped a beat, my mind went blank, i screwed up my song and my hands and feet suddenly felt like they were not mine. you still break my heart. you still do……. not meant to be understood, dont bother asking.
Goodnight wordpress. i love you
