i realised i was a noob… but,
Psalm 73: 23 – 28
23Nevertheless I am continually with You; You do hold my right hand.
24You will guide me with Your counsel, and afterward receive me to honor and glory.
25Whom have I in heaven but You? And I have no delight or desire on earth besides You.
26My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the Rock and firm Strength of my heart and my Portion forever.
27For behold, those who are far from You shall perish; You will destroy all who are false to You and like [spiritual] harlots depart from You.
28But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord God and made Him my refuge, that I may tell of all Your works.
today was one of the worst in my short life and i guess i met with my fair share of problems, wicky felt strange and sounded not like her usual self. my hands were getting cold, i was jumpy. bass on the system sounded bad. i completely noob out, i was crushed, i was looking forward to this practice all week yet i screwed it up. my heart was broken, my soul was perplexed, i wanted so much to just give up. i wanted to break down and cry. i really did. what happened?
i felt dry and empty. i’m still aching from the recent happenings of the week. i was let down so many times this week, up to this point i think i have felt so much disappointment i have lost count of the occassions, i’m feeling really sad now. God are you there? i’m sorry that it always has to come to this before i realise my mistakes. but i’m just very lost.
